It still hurts.

[StarsInUrEye]

I know for a fact I don't love him anymore. But it still hurts. Everytime the house gets a call and I hear about how I basically didn't exist it all feels new. January was a long time ago and I want to forget about how used, betrayed and tricked into giving back an item that was obviously more importent than my feelings. Because he could have lived without the disk. But using my feelings and body to get it and getting married only days later is so fucked up. Leading me on to get my mom to go to court with him. Then getting married weeks later... I feel so sick. I wish my mom wouldn't discuss court stuff because it reminds me how stupid I am to believe that I was more than just a secret. I'm hurt, angry, depressed

[StarsInUrEye]

And now my boyfriend told me "honestly I can do better than you. Be with someone who doesn't sleep around. Like Will has done." I'm not upset he broke up with me. That was just a really mean thing to say. At the same time I feel bad for him. He's. Always known how to hurt me. He must really feel 2nd place if he used that to hurt me .

[great girl wonder]

What a douche nozzle.

Seriously.